I'm making this in regards to those that still watch me, and those I still have art commissions with.
I'm being brutally honest. I'm struggling like hell here.
I'm trying to keep myself stable financially so, some commissions I do take did help quite a bit for money and getting by, but at the end of the day, I'm spending more than I can save. It's not just for the things I want, but the things I need to actually BE stable. I have to help pay for utilities in my home since my grandfather is gone, I have to pay for some of my own food, and I only get so much money every month from other things, and trust me, it's not very much at all.
But what makes it worse for me and these commissions is that real life is just getting in the way. I'm dealing with some more family that I personally don't like. I have trouble actually making time to sit down and just work on drawings because I'm being stressed out by them too. Oh god the stress... I even have a bad tooth situation, and I've been sitting here for months so far to try and get the insurance to actually do something about it, and it's been hurting like hell on fire.
I have also received recent flack, having to cancel some of these commissions because I simply can't work up to task. I just have too much to deal with, so I really DO NOT appreciate being rushed or pushed along in moments like this.
And now, In the mist of all this, I'm having block after block, so my work has pretty much stopped right now.
I really want to say that I WILL get things done. But, I'm just not sure that I can, if things just keep getting worse. I can't afford to give anyone any refunds. I just don't have the kind of money or revenue to fix something like this right now. So I'll understand from a lot of you if it upsets you, or is disappointing you, or even keeping you from asking for commissions completely.
I just need a break for once...